~无题~

太累了，明天再写吧....花了一个晚上的时间，一直在为这个blog做改善...还没完美，但还在加油！

晚安...

《感谢那时你，且过我的手，让我曾经爱过，幸福过.....》

~傻蛋~

~只因你~

哈哈。。
刚打完麻将。。 又赢钱了。。
没啥特别的，昨晚一整夜又没睡了。。
花了一个晚上的时间整理了房间。。
换了个风水。。 哈哈。。。
今晚到Graxs喝酒。。
开了一瓶Chivas。。
大家也玩得满疯的。。

Hmmm。。还真的没啥特别的。。
近来的生活好幸福快乐。。
事情都是环绕着“她”

现在的我，生活方式与习惯多了一个“她”
每天做起事来都满起劲的。。
好像多了一股冲劲。。

“她”已慢慢的融入我的生活了。。。
妈看到“她”后，好喜欢“她”啊。。
每天都问我今天“她”有没有来？
为了就是煮一顿好吃的给“她”
周围的朋友们也都一直的提醒我，要好好地对“她”

但我真的满担心一点的是，这样会不会慢慢的造成一股对“她”的无形压力呢？
还有，大家都在提醒着我要好好地对“她”。。
难道在大家眼里，我真的是个会伤“她”心的男人吗？

我不知道为什么。。
但，很肯定的是。。
现在我只想好好的爱“她”以及花多一点时间来陪“她”

可能在有些人眼里，我配不上“她”
对！我承认我是堆烂泥。。
但那又如何呢？
我只知道我对“她”的爱是真的。。

“我的女孩”
对不起。。
我只是真的对自己缺乏那一点信心。。
我承认我懦弱。。。
我怕失去你。。
无形间我的懦弱造成你的压力。。。
对不起。。。
但你放心。。。
现在还在推动我的就是那份你给我的爱。。
与
我对你的心。。
希望你别再想太多了。。
我相信我们一定能走完这条漫长的路的。。。
记得
没有了你，这条路我一个人走也没意义的。。。

我会遵守我对你的承诺
与
保护这份不易得来的“爱”
未来不管这样。。
我知道我并不会孤单。。
只因有你。。。

是你给了我勇气去面对种种的一切

我爱你。。。



（大家对不起。。。这个blog有点肉麻。。 希望大家可以体谅。。 只是现在有点。。感性吧。。）


因為『在乎』所以『害怕失去』
因為『愛你』所以『不想放棄』
因為『堅持』所以給了我『勇氣』
因為『堅持』所以讓我更『愛你』
因為『堅持』我們的愛更『長久』
一切的一切都只因為『愛你』
屬於我的『幸福』不能說放棄就『放棄』

《傻蛋》

~13th June 2008~

LOLZ...
2nd entry with english..
yaya this is for u jerry!!!
noe u cant read chinese anyway...
LOLZ
btw sry will be using lots of broken eng n singlish...
feeling lazy this morning.....

anyway...
life been smooth...
although i quitted my job...

hmmm...
lots of things did happen...
counting down to 13th june...
time to serve the NATION!!
urgh...
hate it when all males had to go through it...
hmmm been posted to Commando Training Insitute @ Pasir Ris Camp... for e first 3months...

nxt...
frens around mi had been very understanding...
tkz alot... (u all noe wat i mean..)

Mummy!!!
though u cant read eng n use e com but i still wanna say this...
THANKS ALOT FOR ALL E SUPPROT U GAVE MI!!!!!
I LOVE YOU SoooOOOOooOOOOoo MUCH!!!!

My gal... though u dun wanna mi mention ya name here...
but ppl around us shld noe hu u are...
tkz alot too...
giving mi all ya trust n being very very very very very very very very understanding towards mi....

E promise we made n everything.... i will keep it... u noe it.... so dun think so much.. k?
u noe mi.. =)

remember...
i will be waiting.....=)
<3

well...
nthing much to update anyway...
simple life....
out chilling put with frens...
trying to spend as much time with HER as possible......
NUAING at home.....
relaxing ...
enjoying my left over days.....
Pool sessions....
K-Box Sessions.....
Movies? once in awhile....
&
MAHJONG!!!!!
lolz lady luck been on my side eversince i met HER!!!
LOLZ
My Gal...
u are my LUCKY STAR!!!!
LOLZ
win win win win n win!!!
LOLZ...

ok think i going crazy soon due to lack of sleep....

think shld stop here...

(P.S MY GAL!!! I MISS U SO MUCH NOW!!!! URGH!!!!!)

*cant sleep.......



《只有时间才能证明我对你的爱。。。。
信任与等待。。。。
我爱你。。。》

*堕落天使*

~<3~

不知道该如何开头。。
但傻蛋已经恋爱了。。。
并不是已经在一起。。。

但。。
傻蛋知道
这一不是单方面的爱了。。
傻蛋只想好好的去珍惜和爱护她。。
直到前方的路不好走。。。
但愿意一直走下去。。。

他发现到。。
爱一个人是真的可以默默的付出，而不求任何回报的。。。
很多人说他傻。。
但他并不觉得。。。

只要她开心，幸福，傻蛋已心满意足。。。
傻蛋将会不离不弃的陪伴着她度过将来的每一天。。。

傻蛋好想告诉她。。
他真的好爱好爱她。。。
他并没有后悔当初的决定。。
只知道对她的爱会一天比一天的深。。
傻蛋爱你。。。

~三月二十三日~

刚踏进这间花店，看见了一位好特别的女生。。。

第一眼的接触已深深的在傻蛋心里留下了好感。。

傻蛋没勇气向前去认识她。。

最后，在这花店里闹出了许许多多的笑话，傻蛋的朋友们最终和她要到了电邮地址。。

故事便是从这里开始。。。。。

爱的种子也在不知不觉中种下了。。。

~三月二十六日~

傻蛋第一次于她在网上聊天。。。

她对傻蛋没啥印象。。

但傻蛋却对她念念不忘。。。

他们聊得很迟。。

从网上到电话。。

她告诉傻蛋许许多多她的事情与故事。。

但这第一次的聊天已超出傻蛋的预料之外了。。

这也让傻蛋冰冻一时的新慢慢的溶解了。。

爱的萌芽也渐渐的发芽了。。

~三月二十七日~

傻蛋第一次以朋友身份出现在她面前。。

果然，她真地记不得傻蛋的样子。。

那天傻蛋足足坐在店外三个小时。。

看着她做工。。

也不知是什么让傻蛋傻傻的等。。

但他并不觉得累。。

有一股莫名的感觉涌上来。。

但就是不知道是什么感觉来的。。。

~三月三十一日~

傻蛋知道前晚她玩得好疯。。

声音有点沙哑。。

他买了一瓶薏米马蹄水，拿去她的店里给她。。

傻蛋只希望她的声音会没大碍。。。

因为她喜欢唱歌。。。喉咙保养对她来说是很重要的。。。

~四月三日~

傻蛋每晚都会于她聊天。。

傻蛋也在这几天的谈话与接触慢慢的发现他以爱上了她。。

这天，傻蛋与她在大巴窑KBox度过了让傻蛋一生难忘的时间。。

傻蛋也在这天爱上了她的歌声。。一首首她唱的歌曲到现在还在傻蛋的脑海里清唱着。。

在这天，也是傻蛋第一次握住她的手。。。

~四月四日~

她到了朋友的chalet，但她喝醉了。。

当傻蛋知道她醉时，他好担心。。。

在半夜里立刻赶去看看她是否没事。。。

在那时，傻蛋真的很怕。。

很怕她会出事。。

在那时傻蛋也发现了，她已经占据了傻蛋的心了。。。

~四月六日~

凌晨她向傻蛋表白了。。。

傻蛋感动了。。。

傻蛋也在这天，完完全全的定下心了。。。

傻蛋爱她，她也爱傻蛋。。。

~四月七日~

傻蛋没睡。。

傻蛋真傻。。。

傻蛋只是不知道该如何表达自己对她的爱。。。

傻蛋哭了。。。

傻蛋只想说。。。

我爱你。。。。。。。。。

<3

《爱情不在乎时间长短。。。最重要的是一颗最真的心》

~W.E.A.K~

Well has been a very long time i last blog....
didn't really want to say much on wat actually happened this few months...

but anyway, surprised that i used english for my blog this time?
ha.. well juz felt that whatever i'm blogging now needs to be english thats all....

it's 17th march now...
and yes i am finally 22...
will be blogging on my celebrations after i get the pictures from denise....

hmmm....
was organising my documents in my com...
i came across a letter....
it was written on my birthday 16/3/2006
it's from her...


Dear Ww

There are many things left unsaid between us.. hopefully I'll be able to get them out one day. I read your blog and I teared.. It is true I've found my happiness but I couln't stop and think once in a while of what I did to you to be able to get the happiness I have now.. You don't know how bad I felt.. I couldn't face you and had to blocked you for a while..

Though there's no love for you but there's still lots of care and concern... I really hope all the best for you and please take care.. I wish we could be friends but I know it's tough on you.. I didn't feel comfortable talking to you the last time we chatted and I knew I need to give you time..I'll give you as much time as you need.. And I hope one day I'll be able to talk to you knowing everything you say is the truth and no lies..

Lastly, I'm sorry I hurt you... I want you to know that everything I did was not intended or planned... I still don't understand how it happened but I believed it was long overdued... we're just comfortable with where we were and that's why we stayed there... But you know, there's a long future in front of us.. Everything can happen....

Happy birthday.. Keep dreaming and don't give up on those dreams..

Cheers
Patt


i read it and i teared ....
it has been 2 years eversince she left me...
thought that tears won't flow again but...

well... maybe it's true i couldn't let it go...
i have to admit...
i am weak....
hiding myself away from the reality for the past 2 years with cigrattes and alcohol...

i'm trying hard to forget bout it...
trying hard to stand up again...
i've been trying... trying real hard....
tried all means to forget it...
but no matter how hard i try...

i can't....

i seriously can't....
not even now...

i'm still trying.....
but the road to letting go of the past does'nt seem anywhere near for me....

i seriously know that somewhere deep in my heart she's there...
i won't say i still love her, neither will i say i don't...

i am still confused still in a dilimma...

a side of me knows that i should let it go and carry on with my life, but another side of me knows that no matter what i still love her....

towards this... i can no longer judge for myself anymore....

it still hurts....

it really still hurts alot........
really........



“失去你... 等于失去了自己...”
《堕落天使》